Actually..i m wrong
At first, i think that i m doing the right thing all the way...but slowly...i found out that i m wrong...
Like friendship...i thought i treat them with my heart they will treat me back...as the same way...
Many many things, and i dunno to say it....
Although it make me feel lonely coz of having problem with frens....but everytime that is still one fren that talk to me during my lonely... She is Yan Mae...
That feeling had come back to me...
the feeling of missing her...all over the day...
i force myself not to add her in msn...to avoid sticking to the PC and wait her to online...
When having chat ...she dun reply me then i waste my time to be in no mood and cant do any other things... i now slowly forcing myself...
I can survive without her...!!
Today, there is no current for the last 2 period in school...
so samuel they all were chating...
their topic is their family... story...
i just sit at the side and listen...
Suddenly haen ask me...hey tell us your family story...dun keep quite..
i answer him :"i dun have a family" and he suddenly mad at me...
not only him samuel and chang also mad at me...they say... i dunno how to appreciate "family"
I dun think they knew...? i didnt say that i very PRo in that...but as i listening wat they talk...i can see that they arent really knew...wat is family...
OR
mayb i m the one which is wrong...And they are more mature...
But as i stay in a family that dunno how i feel and wat i thinking...and just know how to force and control me all the way... it is hard for me to knew wat is family...
Although i wan wat also can get ,but i wan somebody that really knew my feeling and how i think...
The human whose name written in this Note shall die
